Smiles!

Nathan had a real smile for me yesterday. In fact, he smiled at me twice! What I thought had been smiles in the past may have been attempts to smile, but yesterday they were real. His whole face lit up when he smiled. It was wonderful and I nearly cried :) He has yet to smile at daddy and big brother, but soon :)

I've been doing okay lately. My depression is still lingering and I find myself crying almost every day over something. It doesn't last long, the crying that is, but I usually end up in a funk for a few hours over whatever it was that set me off. I feel that I'm doing better than I was a few weeks ago, but I'm still frustrated that it's still around. I'm hoping to get involved with a place here called Our Place and they offer a support group on Mondays for mothers suffering from PPD. They'll watch Nathan while I'm there which is nice. I have to register ahead of time so it will be at least another week. I'm really looking forward to going. My husband and son have been so wonderful but I feel I really need some help and support from other mothers. I never thought I'd have postpartum depression but I'm glad that I have a family that supports me and wants to help me get better. It sucks being so sad all the time and not getting excited about things that used to interest me. Even shopping isn't fun! ;)

Nathan is doing great. We switched his formula again and he seems to have way less gas. Almost no fussing at all and he's sleeping really good. Well, when he sleeps! He is so stubborn when it comes to sleeping. He tries so hard to fight it and stay awake. His eyelids try so hard to close and his eyes roll back in his head but he fights it with everything he has to stay awake! It's a bit funny to watch actually. Eventually he just can't do it anymore and he'll drift off into dream land.

He's not eating quite as often anymore it seems but he's eating more during feeding (about 100mL or 3.5oz, approx., sometimes more). Maybe every 3 hours or so and I want to say that he's sleeping more during the night, maybe 3 hours there too. He naps a lot during the day, well, somedays. Today, no. He's been up almost all day and I finally was just able to put him down for a nap (after the whole fighting it thing I mentioned above).

He's able to lift his head 45 degrees when on his belly for a few seconds. Today he went all the way to 90 degrees for a few seconds. We really aren't doing as much tummy time as we should so I hope to start doing that more.

We're slowly getting settled in here. I have mixed feelings about this city but it's probably just because I'm so unfamiliar with it and have no clue where half the stores are that I used to shop at in London. Everyone (cashiers, neighbors, etc.) has been super nice though which is good.

My husband is really enjoying his job. He works with a few people that he worked with in London and he likes that. I'm still really happy that he got a job at RIM and I hope he continues to like working there. They still seem to be a really good company to work for. My son is enjoying the city too. We'll be going to his new high school this week to look at registering for fall. Now if I can just get some therapy and make some friends then we'll be set! :)

Hope everyone is well. I have to find the wires to my camera so I can get the pictures I've taken off of it and I'll post them as soon as I'm able.